Nested In the Umbrage

laden in the semblance of the lifeless
i curled my mind, nesting in the umbrage
of memories that haunt more than touch
unable to soar within the wind's of time

she begged me to fly, wrap my wings around faith
offer her comfort, make promises she knows i can't keep
yet my words fall darkened like november days upon her deafness
my shoulders carry her weight as her silence screams aloud

i see the bony fingers of darkness pointing
at yet another encompassed in my coalition
she knows he's come for her, i see the fear
in her downcast eyes, as tears trail my back

i pretend to be tethered on strings of hope
ensconce my fears with factitious smiles
praying she doesn't see the forlorn looming
as i suppress my own tears through a stammer of words
while cursing death beneath my breath, unsettled within

i clamber the ground on deflected knees, hands enclosed
in sullenness my words are uplifted on a zephyr of last breaths
bore of a dozen souls lost as i withdrawal in this unrest of fate once more


November 11, 2019
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019


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Date: 12/14/2019 10:48:00 PM
I really admire your creative brilliance of expression in this outstanding poem, Sandra! Your choice of word phrases is intriguing, drawing one into your emotions. A fave! :)
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Sandra Adams
Date: 1/18/2020 1:03:00 PM
Thank you so very much Laura :) hugs
Date: 12/3/2019 8:35:00 PM
Wow! Congrats! Thanks for sharing your talent. I'm delighted with your picturesque phrases. God bless you.
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Date: 12/4/2019 7:37:00 PM
Thank you so much Beata :)
Date: 12/2/2019 3:51:00 PM
Hi Sandy, So amazing with such vivid images of life, death and the feeling of hopelessness in the face of an event where we have no control. Congratulations!
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Sandra Adams
Date: 12/2/2019 4:43:00 PM
Thank you so much Sam....:) hugs
Date: 12/2/2019 9:08:00 AM
just amazing sweet Sandy, ya well deserved win... <3 :)-luloo
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Date: 12/2/2019 2:46:00 PM
Thank you my sweet friend.... yours was equally amazing Lu Loo :) hugs
Date: 12/2/2019 7:13:00 AM
Look who is sitting in the top spot...but, I already knew this would be the outcome for this amazing piece of writing. Congrats my friend, so well deserved.
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Date: 12/2/2019 2:45:00 PM
Thank you so much my friend...you are too kind to me Chris :) hugs
Date: 12/1/2019 9:43:00 AM
This write is stunning Sandy...we feel every word. An obvious winner, congrats again for another top win. (little consolation considering the subject matter)
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Date: 12/1/2019 11:34:00 AM
Thank you so very much John...some topics really speak to my muse and this was one of those, you, silent one and Craig often spark some of my best writes :) hugs
Date: 11/30/2019 10:58:00 PM
Congrats on your win, Sandra! Poetic hugs, Juliet.
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Date: 12/1/2019 9:11:00 AM
Thank you so much my friend :) hugs
Date: 11/30/2019 7:49:00 PM
Congrats Sandra on your winning poem
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Date: 11/30/2019 8:54:00 PM
Thank you so much Paul... hugs :)
Date: 11/30/2019 4:27:00 PM
This is absolutely beautiful and expressive, Sandra. I can sense these words pouring from the heart...definitely one of your best offerings! Congratulations on placing first! ~ Warm regards // paul
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Date: 11/30/2019 5:55:00 PM
Thank you so much for your kind words Paul...sorry about your sisters...glad they are both doing well... i lost my own mother to cancer, my father had cancer as well but survived, i do have two friends battling it currently...i guess this one did pour from the depths of my heart... hugs
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Date: 11/30/2019 4:31:00 PM
Have just been reading the comments below...I am touched. Both my elder and younger sisters have had cancer these past three years; so far, after surgery, doing well...hugs
Date: 11/15/2019 10:48:00 AM
This is such a powerful write! I read your comments and my heart breaks for you. Poetic hugs.
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Sandra Adams
Date: 11/15/2019 11:16:00 AM
Thank you so much my friend...i think after awhile you become numb and just learn to accept what life throws at you...i have my share of cries, don't get me wrong, but i try and stay strong around others at least...hugs :)
Date: 11/11/2019 5:46:00 PM
so profound, Sandy. I can tell you with almost complete certainty. you will be in the top three.
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Date: 11/11/2019 6:39:00 PM
Thank you so much my friend for your vote of confidence on this one...cancer is never an easy subject.... hugs
Date: 11/11/2019 3:30:00 PM
Quite a poignant write Sandy--truly nested in the umbrage--there is comfort in comforting others as you so expertly write about..unrest of fate never easy my friend.
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Date: 11/11/2019 6:38:00 PM
Thank you so much my friend...it's hard to be strong...i have been to 12 funerals already in 2019, i have two close to me battling cancer, which took my own mother...it's not easy to watch someone go through this and pretend to be strong for them.... hugs :)
Date: 11/11/2019 3:03:00 PM
A beautifully written deep poem Sandra. I know exactly what you mean about losing friends to death. I am scared for one right now, with cancer. Well done. Take care :)
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Date: 11/11/2019 6:36:00 PM
Thank you so much Heidi...i think everyone knows someone effected and just hearing those words "you have cancer" is like a death sentence...i pray your friend and my friend as well as countless others win this war...it's hard to be positive around them when you are afraid for them as well... hugs :)
Date: 11/11/2019 12:12:00 PM
The ink that flows from your pen is the in the darkest shade of sorrow my friend. If I read this correctly you smile in the face of this situation so soothe a friend's worries while all along your heart is crying. So it seems there is also a strength in your ink as well that just shows how special you are. Best wishes in the contest
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Date: 11/11/2019 12:17:00 PM
Thank you my friend, after twelve funerals in 2019 I want to hide my eyes but two friends have cancer and want me to lift them in spirits. I am wounded and as afraid as them... you are very insightful I was hoping it made sense. This took days to write. Hugs
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