Need That Special Smile

What if I was to just give up, I wouldn't be losing very much, Not like I have any kids to help, Help my heart feel the special touch, I don't get why I should try so hard, I'll be dieing one of these days, Reaching the top isn't going to affect me, I'm still going to end up passing away, But let's say I do finally reach the top, And I stay there with out falling back, Who will I enjoy my glory with now, A son or a daughter is what I lack, Honestly I don't like these feelings I have, I just feel empty not wanting to smile, Why am I the only one that sits alone, Why can't I be bless with my own child!!