Narcissus

I don't mean to importune
But I can't help but notice
How your eyes are set upon the path before your wandering feet

I don't mean to be rude
But I can't help but see you
Staring at your faded reflection in the water as clouds wander by

I don't mean to mimic you
But every word, everything you do
Just seems exactly like what I thought I was going to say
But there's never enough time left in these days

I don't mean...
But that's ok if the leaves give you shelter from the sun and the rain
   Rest a while at the edge of yourself

I mean, so long as you don't mind my presence, my faded voice
It's just that all that echoes from your lips sounds like it bears repeating time again
and again

What's that?
You're leaving? Don't leave me here with nothing but a shadow of time on the water and
mirrors in sheets of white rain that bring little relief to my desert so dry in the shade
of these tears that I've cried, phosphorescing in the lonely night.

I thought that I'd found you
The one who would lie at the edge of her own nothingness
Until the roots of oblivion finally set in the soul
And the hole there  before her, brimmed over with water
The hole would just prove to be what I've become
And what she'd become, nothing more than a door into sunsets
And daffodil tears in the morning would form on her lips as she finally knew who she was

But no, you could never fulfill that fate
After all, all the words that could fall from your lips
I've already said over and over again to myself

No, there's nothing you can say
That hasn't been uttered once over again
From my lips, now wet with dew
And the tears of a flower
As hour by hour
The days end
And so I turn into myself
As I've always been turned
She loves me
   Loves me not
Petal
   By
       Petal

Copyright © Natsirt Nav Neram | Year Posted 2005

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