My Worst Fear

laying supine in the miasma of my own abominable waste my exposed spoor and stench,now, others can taste sweat, grime and shame encrust my mottled skin food and drink love to lurk in the wrinkly folds under my chin my hands tremble,like shaken by an earthquake can't even hold a brush to comb my hair straight unable to move, a prisoner, chained to my own bed in hell I try to draw motile attention by ringing a clamorous bell sleep evades me; I lay awake and thirsty all night waiting for a sip of water sometimes until daylight some evenings, I pine to see the vermilion sunset hope someone is free to push the wheelchair on my request my flesh has dissolved but there is weight in my bone they never say but I must feel like a sac of stone my family, they love me I know but they are busy nurturing a grown up child for long can never be easy I won’t complain but if life comes to this day Lord, my God—please gently lift me away
Written on 06/24/2016
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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Richards Avatar
July 14, 2016 at 2:29 PM
The emotions run deeply with the fear of losing control. I do believe it is a fear I feel more than any other...having to be dependent on someone else to care for me. I think this poem is brilliant!
Haight Avatar
July 14, 2016 at 10:01 AM
Back to congratulate you, Sara, on your fine placement in this contest! Hugs, Sandra
Shanmugam Avatar
July 13, 2016 at 11:07 PM
Great write sara:) congratulations
Teagan Avatar
July 13, 2016 at 8:02 PM
Sara, you did an amazing job with the details on this.. the very gritty and not so pretty facts of being dependent on others. Very touching write. Congratulations on your win in my contest!
Suri Avatar
June 24, 2016 at 11:27 PM
Very powerful poem,Sara ! .....so well written...... actually this is everyone 's worst fear.you brought it out so beautifully.....love Salma
Chansarkar Avatar
June 27, 2016 at 1:51 PM
Thanks :)
Haight Avatar
June 24, 2016 at 8:21 PM
Oh my, Sara...so very sad, deep and powerfully written...this would be anyone's worst fear...gave me goosebumps. But...I am sure this happens...your last line says it all. Amazing write for the contest and best wishes. 7 Hugs, Sandra
Chansarkar Avatar
June 24, 2016 at 9:20 PM
thanks Sandra!means a lot coming from a poet like you!
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