My Three Prayers

Here I am sitting in the chair Staring at the ceiling above my head Contemplating life's meaning and testing my deep feelings If a pin drops I can hear the sound If a dog moans I can understand its groans If a crow screams I can feel its extreme Today is a brand new day and the devil has receive his marching order to leave town But his combolos are still hanging around Yesterday was a very perplexing day The weather was strange my feeling was weird and it appeared as if all the dead had risen and was marching around the State of Virginia I have never felt anything like this before Birds flying from door to door and the force was stronger than before A peculiar feeling saturated the atmosphere And heaven and earth were locked in a passionate dialogue I got up early and went in the street to pray I circled around the neighborhood with my cup and a tiny flash light and scripture verses flowing through my mind I walked and prayed in an unknown tongue and suddenly a perplexing feeling start bubbling up in my gut I have never had this sensation before it was intangible It wasn't pain , anxiety stress or tension it felt as if something was moving inside me trying desperately to burst out And there was no way for it to get out I knelt down and water the street with my tears as the cars drive up and down the way trying desperately to hear what I say But I prayed in an unknown language that only God understands And he appointed the angels to take me by my hand I tried to forced this unnatural feeling out of my belly But it wrestled with me and took me to another spot and place me on my knees. I prayed and tried to usher the terrible feelings away But the tears kept flowing and the sensation kept growing I wander up the dark road with the Holy Spirit guiding me Again I stumbled upon another spot and bowed down and pray I felt the tension fading away but something profound was pulling it back As soon as I got home the rain starts pouring down And this terrible consciousness was still lingering around It made me feel uncomfortable My spirit got cross and I felt something oppressive around me I could not identify it and I could not get rid of it As the rain pours my heart groans and I could not held back the tears The sensation returned and positioned itself in my gut I felt as if someone was literally beating me up I felt used, abused and mistreated and I could not discard the tears I had no cure for this sudden fits I had to vent and let it all out so I positioned a pillow over my mouth and held my belly and cry out loud I screamed deeply inside the pillow suffocating the sound so that it could not spread around The wound was so deep I could hardly hear my heart beat When the feeling faded I walked outside in the rain and got something sweet to appease my heart beat It felt as if it was judgment day because nothing was going my way Even when everything is tumbling around me my inner feeling usually keeps me intact I could not shake the feeling away It cuts deep inside, rubbing on my galls and marrow stirring up my intestine sending shock waves through my body and sapping every bit of my energy I know that God had his hands in this Only he alone knew what was happening and could fix it I stopped by the Giant supermarket and bought a dozen doughnuts On the cover of the container a big number three sticker stared at me I contemplate what God was trying to say to me I walked back in the cold and muggy weather something was happening inside and God was on my side I sat on the chair for hours with this feeling rumbling in my belly I tried desperately for it to go away but it kept nibbling at my punitive heart Night had fallen the tears suddenly stop flowing and I felt my blood circulating in a cordial way The rain subsides and something magical stood by my side Forcing the oppressive spirit to run away The devil was finally defeated my gut was cleared and the dark clouds have finally disappeared My three prayers were answered.