My Struggle

A never ending battle reeking havoc in my mind Oh how I wish i could leave this all behind For a truly endless time, one side fires at the other Each and every time, makes me want to run for cover Chewing on my being, way down deep inside my soul Each and every one, leaves me with a giant hole It stares me in the face, with a truly evil grin I really have no clue, that says i can truly win One side says I can't. one side says i can And one side says don't listen, suck it up and be a man Still I try to scream for help, and tell people I'm not well But all I get is silence, and it's putting me through hell It punches me and smiles, it spits on me and laughs And at the same time, it still stabs me in the back Steeling every bit of trust, I've had for all my friends Telling me that they don't care, that we can't make a mends Stabbing me right through the soul, the essence of my being A truly heartless torture, such as none you've ever seen I finally turn my head towards God, and ask him on my knees Please take this pain from me, I beg you dear God please Despite what i may have thought, he made me look and see He wrapped me with his warm embrace, and then he lifted me Now I know without a doubt that he is truly there I also know for all my life, that he will always care