My Shame

I tasted the breath of death, just the other day Please bow your heads with me, let us all pray There was the darkness all curled up in my mind Looking for something that was not there to find There was no shame; no guilt there was no reason to lie I answered each question, about the how and the why I ask about my wife, my daughter and even my Doctor to I couldn’t believe I had overdosed; after all I have been through My wife talked with my Doctor who gave me a hug and a grin Scared to death that I was about to lose one of my dearest friends He said, “Mike that is the number one thing that I love about you” You ask about how all of us are feeling, with your heart so true Mike You’re the one table, you’re the one you just about died Yet it is for each one of us, all of those tears you have cried Mike look at all the people that are concerned about you It’s because you have learned how to be truer than true I bet this little story will be written for the whole world to see With no shame in your game, guess what just happened to me? Mike that’s why this whole town loves the person you are When it comes to the cold hard truth, you shine like a star Where most people would be running off someplace to hide You’ll tell the truth to the world with the Lord at your side Somebody mentioned the 12-step program and yes I do attend Though these days everything I do depends on the pain I am in I created many games in Prison to test ones threshold of pain Most folk would agree mine sits on the border of totally insane My nerves have been crushed, cut and broken almost broke into Which happened to the cartilage in my knee and a ligament or two Through it all I’ve helped everyone I can, I have refused to stop When it comes to my spiritual mountain I’m driven to reach the top But ever since I overdosed that day, I am on a journey of rest See the Lord will go to every extreme so we will learn his test This poem is a beautiful story that keeps running though my mind Though I reckon I should end it now that there is no more to find Everyday is a miracle in a single breath our lives can be taken away Tell the ones that you love I love you, and take time with them to pray As for me I reckon that I make my mistakes I’m just a part of the game That little part with a great big heart sharing every last drop of my shame