My Reasons

My reasons…. The reasons for my stress is because of my longings something that my heart can never confess The reason i fail and the reason i try is because i know whats mine in my eyes Yet i failed again trying to follow them hoping to be one of them so i lift up my pen and write away on this blank sheet of paper hoping to pass and continue on later yet i failed once again trying to fight off the thoughts of what happened last year as i stay back to rot “it's not my fault” as i quietly whisper thinking of heartbreaking scenes the ones that make me shiver I couldn't focus if only i never knew her if only ide choose to leave if only i had the cure for this high fever Please don't blame me it hurts me more to have what's inside me something the naked eye can never see with ears that are too deaf to hear this silent plea As i smile for the important people ones that cannot lose for if i lose them my all so dear friends i would lose my stability one i cannot amend So please see me the one i try so hard to be the one that was meant to pass last year the one that quietly shivered in fear One that shed a billion tears one that can never be the same the one that will always remain insane