My Perfect Mom

I just found out, not sure it’s real, Jail chaplain told me, to numb to feel. My stomachs churning, heart has sunk, I can’t believe, am in a funk. Should have been there, made you go, Sometimes I wonder, did you know. Think you gave up, when Nana left, Then with Pappy, and all their theft. All you did was hide and grieve, I finally had to up and leave. I screwed up, by falling down, No turning back I’m almost drown. I cannot breath just want to hide, Wanted to be there, by your side. Wish I could have, said goodbye, I never thought, that you would die. Just leave this earth, now heaven bound, Without a word, not one sound. Last words I heard, message on my cell, Good luck sweetie, I wish you well. I love you too, wish I could show, Would take it back, would let you know. No matter what, you’re “MY PERFECT MOM”!!! 2/23/06 In loving memory of the one person who forgave me no matter what and loved me unconditionally. Judith Ann Celayir August 8, 1945 – February 22, 2006