My Own

I’m on my own but thats okay, I can still feel the tears rolling down my face. Still learning to love, still very afraid. Still just trying to find my own way. Yeah, I think I’m good I’m moving on But the thought of you keeps creeping in And I just can’t handle this anymore on my own. I just wanted you to know, want you to see, That I know why you had to leave. You said that you were just trying to protect me. So I try to fight out of this haze But I’m losing as everything seems displaced Because I still love you. My heart still mourns for a love that is now gone My soul feels of blackened burnt wood as I fail moving on. Please try and tell me that things will be okay Reassure me that our past wasn’t just a phase That it was real and true in everything that we would say. I know that your living your life Moving on like everything should Making the best to thrive Leaving the girl you once loved left behind Never knowing that her feelings are still where yours once stood Oh yes, I’m doing fine Now your back and I want you to stay But how can I let you in when you walked away? My love is still here frozen in time Can I thaw it out without telling a lie? Should I keep moving on with my failed new start, Or should I let you back in? With hopes that I don’t perish inside Losing myself to every fault? Will you leave me guessing or say it’s a joke? Tell me how wrong I am to assume that you would come back like you did before. Or will you say that you still love me all the same, But still leave again as soon as you came? I already feel you slipping, Beg did I for you to let me go If you weren’t here to stay then leave me alone Don’t mess with my heart like it’s a piece in a game For I feel more valuable than a pawn made of soft stone. I'm on my own again, but stronger than before. I can still feel scars that my tears had made. Still wanting to learn to love, but paranoid beyond belief Make no mistake, for you did this to me. Yeah, I'm starting over again My thoughts like to think of you still. For you forever left your mark upon my heart, Giving me a lesson that's left branded on my soul. Now, I'm moving forward on my own.