My Nightmares

My ideas are in hiding 
Afraid of the secret police
For they are in Kansas City
My poems are not wanting to goosestep
I hear glass breaking
It does not wake me up at first
But when it does I am in Portland
And my poem is standing on a man’s neck
I am screaming for it to get off
He is yelling that he cannot breathe.
Terror infiltrates me as I realize I am paralyzed.
I can hear my heartbeat; double-time now.

My ideas are in a fetal position, lying under benches.
Visualizing concentration camps
Oh, excuse ME! Internment camps.
Children being torn from their mother’s arms.
Crying and wailing. Cages. Dirty rotten government men.
My poems are turning themselves into stories.
I am no help. I am paralyzed. Cannot stop the thoughts though.
Swastikas are swirling around which is not comfortable.
Now the Klan! Are you kidding?
I am being marched out by chicken  white hooders.

My writing is holding its breath, lying in wait
Thinking I will return. I may never be the same.
This new development has me buckling at my knees.
Someone cracks me across them with a whip.
Someone speaks German at me.
Crapppp!   I barely know English.
That’s a good one my muse says, making a note.
I try to wake up, but there is someone sitting on my neck.
I cannot breathe.
I struggle,
I scream
Nothing comes out.
My worst nightmare, and of course it is three a.m.
The time I always have to go to the bathroom.
Something big is sitting on my neck and my head.
I give up, not caring about anything except breathing now.
It’s the Covid 19, my muse says. We are obsessed with it
I am so irritated, for it might not be my muse.
It might be another personality; I have plenty of them.
I sit quietly, waiting for the urge to write to pass.
Unfortunately, it never does.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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Roper Avatar
July 25, 2020 at 12:35 AM
Our Nightmares are ruled by our daily lives that has its yoke around Our necks. It’s a shame that our every day life triggers our nightmares I wish It would end. Good one. Hugs Eve
Krutsinger Avatar
July 26, 2020 at 8:46 AM
Thank you so much Eve.
Dietrich Avatar
July 24, 2020 at 4:13 PM
very very good writing, Caren. Especially I liked the images of the Nazi camps. I see society going in that direction again... people turning their eyes pretending what they see and hear is not what is really happening. Or actually being bamboozled by all the bull crap. Love this.
Krutsinger Avatar
July 25, 2020 at 12:00 AM
Thank you so much Andrea. It is scary.
Cheney Avatar
July 24, 2020 at 5:33 AM
A nightmare indeed.
Krutsinger Avatar
July 25, 2020 at 12:01 AM
I knew you would understand Kenneth. Thank you for stopping by.
Pigeon Tart Avatar
July 24, 2020 at 3:43 AM
I am crying now, tears for you and your thirsty muse. xomo
Krutsinger Avatar
July 25, 2020 at 12:01 AM
I know you are Mo, and we both appreciate it!
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