My Matter

How I feel, doesn't matter It's all about them And how their world ain't no platter To serve them, and their red matter With their troubles against mine My words are tied Short breathes on their broken lives Explain'in how everyone dies All about them, not about me Holdup, holdup, what about me I had no easy platter People think my life don't matter It's bad so what, get over it, no luck So what, so what, is all they say; so what My life ain't no game I still feel pain Cause I feel my shame When I see your fame So smile in vain So what, so what, is heard by me; So what I didn't matter before So why am l surprised now Everyone's backs been at me, how Cause they see no girl, but a cow So I get off my knees And still everyone's avoid'in me I don't beg them please Cause I know they don't know me I know that they don't care So why do I not bare Bare with the lies All the crazy fights And all the broken lives I lost in my mind No one can save me in time So why do I lie No I'm not okay Cause I still have to pay For the cost of the vivid days Still so clear, I ask my dear No dear, no mother, no father I ain't got them on my back So my heart beats off track My breath'in becomes an attack Cause I lost one dad To a dark given cell Lost one mom From her stupid silent spell And lost one lover Who's mind didn't know me well How I feel, doesn't matter It's all about them And how their world ain't no platter To serve them, and their red matter