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My Love

His presence is right next to me.
Never thought reality,
Could feel just like it does.
I'm tired of holding on,
To something I know is wrong,
His past is what it was.
Never thought it would do to me,
Exactly what it did to me.
Causing pain between me and my love.
How could I ever be,
Filled up with so much hostlity,
And aim it towards the guy above?
I never thought he would send to me,
Exactly what he sent to me.
An angel that I could call my own.
I'm unwanted in this madness,
Drowning in all my sadness,
But with Donald, I know I belong.
How could he ever do to me,
The things tHEy did in history,
Some things of which I despise.
Caught up in emotional luxaries,
Needing a lovers company,
Yet falling for all of their lies.
But never once with my love,
Could I ever experience such a pain,
Was the thought I had come to believe.
And even after seven months,
Of dealing with jealousy, his past and trust,
It's still him, the one that I fiend.
Indeed he had a past just like the others,
Didn't intend to make me cry,
But he did because of the things he had done.
But I couldn't let him go,
I couldn't give up love.
Couldn't let THEM come to believe that they had won.
My fears try to scare away,
Something I know is the best.
That's why this is something I need to get through.
Why give up on something,
That hasn't given up on me?
Why give up on a love that's true?
We both have our pasts,
We both have our problems,
But we can't let that reflect on the future that we were destined to  
share.
Why leave a bestfriend?
Why leave a companion?
When u know that he's the only one that cares?
Jealousy, betrayal, trust.
Created by my own insecurities.
Are things this angel will help me overcome.
They are weighing on my heart,
They are weighing down this relationship.
That's what happens when your past carries a ton.
How can an angel be the way,
He just was on yesterday?
Having a personality just like the last and the next.
What I see shining through,
The mirror reflecting you.
Is everything that you use to lack.
An angel desguised as a demon,
Another example of society taking control.
Just luckly my angel had taken his mask off in time.
Revealing his true colors.
Showing his true personality.
My angel was ready to shine.
Yet he still has a past,
That haunts me 'til this day.
That would have probably never existed if he didnt want to fit in.
We will work through these things.
Because we both want to change.
For the first time,
In a long time,
I will let my happiness win!

Copyright © Jerrika Holmes | Year Posted 2010

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