My Life So Far

Hurt and agonizing pain, painful things that even the lord can't take away. People I love being taken away from me, places I want to go, but I know I will never be. One of my children going to Heaven, my other two just seem gone, not being able to tell them I love them in so very long. Relationships just keep going wrong, the worst relationship of all, is the relationship with my mom. Life just seems to be still falling apart, I wish there was somebody to mend my broken heart. Nobody in my life is ever satisfied, sometimes I wish my life was just one big lie. I wish that my life was still in the making, or that god could atleast give me an explanation. It's like trying to be a good person hasn't gotten me anywhere, sometimes I wonder, "Jennifer, why do you even still care?" I know that god is my shining star, but this is just the story of my life so far.*