My Life At Hand

A child with no father who has been suffered by losses Bitten my a bug of anger & attitude that gives him no friends Causing pain to everyone he touches Drowning himself in sorrow cause he can never make it in life Every relationship he has, another heart of his is broken For every love he had he left and cheated for another. Gained nothing but regret and lies Hating his parents because they lied to him Is he dying inside or is he hallucinating? Justifying himself as a guy who lossed his virginity to another guy Keeping his faith of his god above, stay strong in his religion. Loving every sin fantasy, can he please stop being haunted Making a choice, make himself happy or his parents & the world. Never knowing whats right, just doing whats wrong Opposing ever truth he is told cause he doesn't believe anymore Paused at the drama what's happening in the world now Quiting every job, possibility and opportunity Raised as a child with one mother, and none to love Stopped believing he can try ages ago Taking the bad side of life and eating it like a meal Using everybody, stealing from everyone, not caring Varying in the different consequences but doesn't care Wondering will God forgive me? Yet he still is turning his life around