My Life As a Lie

I cried but you couldn't hear the sobs the tears were there but never shed, I was confined within my pain and only lived, the life created in my head. I convinced only myself that I wasn't who everyone claimed I felt I was pure with intention and everything gone wrong I had someone else to blame. and they were the ones with conditions. I lived in a fantasy of deception only I understood what mystifies the rest I thought the world was completely wrong and alone I stood when everyone left. I become content with being alone because friends and family never existed It was my mind that twisted my heart thinking I was the only one who didn't have corupt intentions…. I had the time to analyze sit back and replay it all in my mind I caught myself pressing pause on my memories and then a memory brought tears to my eyes as In my head I would press rewind seeing me destroying my life . I couldn't bring myself to accept the proof as it was played over and over for my eyes I fought what was proven to be considered truth and Concluded that I was the only person who was convinced of the lies.