My Last Supper Pg1

Sittin here with a plate of food in front of me. holding a picture in my mind of the last supper floating off haze my mind begin to go into deep thought. sitting with a full plate of food in front of me yet trying to feed myself food of knowledge meanwhile ,trying to avoid digesting from the tree of Eden yet its tempting when the only thing surrounding me is snakes. heisting in my ear waiting on me to enter their trap. tho the temptations are tempting, i try to ignore the heisting it's getting ignoring the fruit are coming off the tree and their pouring now I'm trying to avoid the fruit of knowledge. I see why eve was under so much pressure. See eve had a lack of knowledge. she wasn't aware of the devil. Took a bite out of the apple thinking god wont find out ever then gave Adam some so he could feel the same way this is the same thing we do today. we try something new and want our love one to do it too. Too much knowledge have you in a situation as Adam and Eve. A lack of knowledge have you chasing other people dreams . Following the leader when the leader hemself is lost Me I'm trying to stay focus watching what I digest. my circle is gettin smaller with the people that I trust meanwhile I'm trying to keep beliving myself at any given time I'm not sure wat I'm capable of I just pray a individual don't test me I can barely pass the test god give me yet pass the test man put up against me my glass is so full but it feels so empty sitting here with a full plate of food in front of me. thinking about the last supper fork on the table I'm rubbing my knuckles going into deep thought cant remember much of what I was taught was I taught? seem like I educated myself Moma wasn't around daddy was incarcerated before going in the police put the gun to my face and the house was raided . there, I didn't really care about education I just had to try to live and make it. I didn't care about the consequences or temptations. I smoke marijuana, just to ignore everything I was facing. skipping school. I was smoking not to be cool but to get high for the moment and forget get about the bad moments. like begin raped abandon and homeless. I was facing life but I was declared freedom. where was everyone when I needed them. I used to cry wondering if god hear my cries some nights I even prayed that god take me to sky