My Guilty Pleasure

Under this star sprinkled sky my heart is confined beneath such a brightly lit blanket,This air caressing my lungs so casually I feel as though I'm drowning in the pain, My stomach aches and shivers from anxiety at the lingering selfish thoughts in my head, I'll stay by your side shouldering the burden for you so long as you hold my hand, In this dark world I'll call out your name so you'll always see my soul beat for you, The pain I carry I wield it as my double edged sword beating back the tears, Holding onto this emotional scar carved into my heart I like the weight of it all, Standing under this firefly night........Loving an hating my very existence...