My Feelings Around

My Feelings Around: I can see the colours deep within my eyes I can feel the needle spiking with surprise I can feel the hatred, sorrow, and the lies Swelling up in my brain; I take it by surprise Emotions are a weakness… I am dead today Feelings with this bleakness… Got nothing left to say If my life was so easy… I would not have to pray Feeling oh so sleepy… Don’t want to come and play I built a wall around me… A fortress in my mind Nothing penetrates me… This love is so unkind I want to run away… Leave this world behind I try to open my eyes, but I am oh so blind My vision is so murky yet I can see it all My temper has been shortened and yet I feel tall Towering above you… wanting you to fall If I hear my phone ring I ignore the… call Look what you’ve created… A monster inside me If you stir my anger you must just let me be Within this shell I’m breaking… you will wait and see I dwell inside this madness… wouldn’t you… agree Someone please just feel me! I am not so bad! I could be the best friend that you’ve ever had! I can’t believe you judge me! Imperfections are so sad! But now that you have hurt me! I am oh so… mad! I’m crazy. Don’t look at me! I’m crumbling in my fears I’m hasty! Don’t date me! I’m wallowing in tears This life is so wasted! All my time in years My brain works in phases and yet it never clears I’m not good enough for your love I’m not ascending to the glitter lights above I’m falling and crawling… I’m not deserving of These feelings I’m having I would like to shove