My Feelings Around

My Feelings Around:

I can see the colours deep within my eyes
I can feel the needle spiking with surprise
I can feel the hatred, sorrow, and the lies
Swelling up in my brain; I take it by surprise

Emotions are a weakness… I am dead today
Feelings with this bleakness… Got nothing left to say
If my life was so easy… I would not have to pray
Feeling oh so sleepy… Don’t want to come and play

I built a wall around me… A fortress in my mind
Nothing penetrates me… This love is so unkind
I want to run away… Leave this world behind
I try to open my eyes, but I am oh so blind

My vision is so murky yet I can see it all
My temper has been shortened and yet I feel tall
Towering above you… wanting you to fall
If I hear my phone ring I ignore the… call

Look what you’ve created… A monster inside me
If you stir my anger you must just let me be
Within this shell I’m breaking… you will wait and see
I dwell inside this madness… wouldn’t you… agree


Someone please just feel me!  I am not so bad!
I could be the best friend that you’ve ever had!
I can’t believe you judge me!  Imperfections are so sad!
But now that you have hurt me!  I am oh so… mad!

I’m crazy.  Don’t look at me!  I’m crumbling in my fears
I’m hasty!  Don’t date me!  I’m wallowing in tears
This life is so wasted!  All my time in years
My brain works in phases and yet it never clears

I’m not good enough for your love
I’m not ascending to the glitter lights above
I’m falling and crawling… I’m not deserving of
These feelings I’m having I would like to shove

Copyright © Matthew Corbin | Year Posted 2017

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