My Dilemma

We were going for a match, My team members were happy. But, I was not! I was in deep thought. My squad was in confidence. But, I was not! Later, because of her I got overconfidence. But, my confidence was in darkness. Even though my confidence was in darkness. Yet, she was reason of my happiness. Even she wasn't in my team. But, I thought she supported me as a beam. I know, when I first saw her. I lost the match before performance. Perhaps, due to her resonance. Or due to my overconfidence? Then, I was unable to understand. What is happening with me? But, even today; I don't know. Why I lost the match before performance? I don't know! Why? Is due to her resonance, Or due to my overconfidence?