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My Depression

I'll admit that I have tried to commit suicide. i have tried many times with a perscription drug overdose, i ended up in the hospital several times for it. I went to that assembly and now i feel very ashamed of myself. I suffer from depression, and feel like i have no one to talk to. My aunt/ guardian passes it off as a "just a teenage thing". When i was sitting there watching these little shows on the right and wrong thing to do when someone is talking about commiting suicide. i related to a lot of it. i wrote down the numbers so i can talk to someone and get help. when i was depressed, i starved myself and when i did that i ended up in the hospital. a lot of my friends were worried, especially +Elmo Frazier, i was killing myself without even knowing it. i starved myself to where i now am at risk of fainting and not waking up, developing severe anemia, protein loss, i have epilipsy (seizures). my depression caused me to push people out of my life, and when i tried to get them back, they didn't want me. i've been rejecte my mother left me and thats when my depression started. i was physically abused and now im verbally abused. when i need to talk to someone, no one listens. i often go home and drink to make myself feel better. u keep myself locked up in my room and think very often of commiting suicide, and then i think about what it would be like when i finally did commit suicide, and what would happen to my friends and family and how they would feel. i'm admitting this to you all so you can see how i feel. i'm going to get help for my depression.

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Date: 3/29/2012 12:46:00 PM
I can feel your pain, but do not commit suicide! Jesus loves you, talk to someone in a Church, find a church home, and tell the elder or pastor of the church your problem, talk to someone of God! I feel you can be saved! Jesus have something great for you to do here on this earth, he put you here for a reason but you will never know if you let the spirit of depression cause you to take your life, read your bible, and see how much better you will feel. Remember Jesus loves you know matter what! I love you and will pray for you, Keep the faith, dont give up there is hope! You Be Blessed. I hear your cry and so do others. You are not along.
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