My Depression

Where am I? Where do I begin? Every day I seem to have a sin Where am I? I ask you now How do I replace my body and face somehow? I cannot look in the mirror cause all I see Is this blob and ugly all around me I just close my eyes and put my hands on my face Tears is all that I do replace I keep quiet and let people run my life I really want to be someone's wife But my illness gots a hold of me I just hope my man and I can be Where am I? Why do I hide? I know I got him by my side Where am I? What do I do? I just got to stop and think through I got to look deep inside my heart somethings missing but where do I start How do I change to get the strength Should I turn my heart to faith I keep quiet and let my feelings burn I know someday that I will learn I keep my feelings locked in a shell Why do I feel low and cannot tell? Where am I? Why do I hate myself for real? I know somehow I coup and deal Where am I? I hope to face My depression I wish I could erase!! Rachel Thibeault Jan. 2011