My Darkest Hours Nightmares

So many thoughts collide in my head
When im laying, waging war in the deep consciousness lurking within my head 
With words, i feel, i cant express the type of pain i feel inside,
 that at times,
 makes me feel like im poisoned with lead
Old memories haunt me 
as down memory lane...i tread

Sleepless nights find me and wear me out after 
Something, i feel, wants me to become nothing more but a common disaster
Sweet dreams i keep chasing, so my soul can find laughter
Like a hunger; it consumes me
And in the dead of the night
It comes ever faster
Like a master crafter,
It makes for me a trap
To still me inside a suffocating wrap 

Maybe one day il be free...
from these thoughts that envade me as i try and find peace 
...And one day i can be where i want to be
And maybe...inside loving arms...the war within me will...sease
Like true beauty...
It calms my mind and soothes my heart
And keeps me from becoming something else
That rageful and restless beast 
May one day he be cut completely 
From the part of me
Thats haunted
 until one day 
I can be with the one i love...
That does set in me...
Her loving and truthful decree
Amen and so let it be
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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