My Children

I held you in my blood Long before my womb was home I endured the sentence of "barren" Among blessed mothers...alone When proof was in place I rejoiced with those who jeered Finally, when you arrived I endured entitled cheers As you grew into self And I surrounded you in loving ground I endured advice givers Admonishing me to be a "saner" sound When you came through trials Adults have failed to clear I endured judgment Formed from their deepest fears ............of faliure When we rose up out of darkness To live in a daunting day Relationships were renewed and strained As we endured the circumstances trying to play .........outiside of boundaries Separation, desperation I decided NOT to cry No matter what I endured I refused to ask the "unanswerable" WHY!!! You came back to me Of your own accord I rejoiced and settled in To providing the "Poor" I could afford I poured forth love Never asking a thing in return Knowing compassion would train What could never be earned Now....you are gone Making a life you want to live I, as a person, am not in it But I am in everything you give So, if you give your life to another And I am, and will always be, just your mother I can rest in knowing Love is alive and forever growing ....in you... Written by Trudy Schrader on 10-25-2020