My Best Friend

Before I fall asleep your the last thing on my mind, the only one I dream about hoping to awake to find, The only one I see when I'm going about my day, However, when I try to begin to tell you this I find the words I cannot say, I find I'm choking on those words; ignoring any emotion, But the more and more I push away I hear my heart has spoken, Telling me to let you in and to stop building up a wall, but the reason that I do is because I know without it I would fall, this is the reason you find me hesitant standing an arms length from your hand, I watched it all come together but for it I never planned, Never knew I could feel like this so strongly for a man, So from a distance I just watch; from my held ground I continue to stand, Contemplating what I should do if I should take one step closer, because I rather watch from a distance if too many steps means It's over, I don't want to lose that breathless moment I feel when I hear your voice, That is something I wish to always keep if I have the given choice, Given the choice I would choose to tell you I love you to no end, Your more than just a lover ...your my everything...my best friend.