My Beautiful Mistake

I’m flooded with thoughts; rain couldn’t wash away my tears. Pain has over ran me, though it doesn’t control me. It’s not a win or lose situation, I am lost, unguided and left blinded, uncertain of the right path to take. Leaving me to be the perfect human; making many mistakes. I have thoughts with high hopes to leave them forgotten as I have. A powerful part of me told me to walk away; My Heart isn’t able to express the correct words to say the things that I need, or the proper times to what I have been feeling. I’m having trouble understanding why I have been feeling this way. Another emotional state that has me focused on deeper thoughts forced with blurred visions of her walking, displaying her up lifting smile, it’s hard for me to awaken from my day dreams; she once touched me, brining me back to this reality. Hugged and held me tight without the time to react, knowing this was a beautiful mistake and I would never trade it even if it meant the pain would stop. I held her closer. Anyone can say that they understand, I’m left with my own UN judgmental thoughts of this situation. I know what I’m feeling; I know the meaning to my own questions even without the answers. I was left with them for a reason, to embrace my mistakes no matter how beautiful.