My Apology

I can't find the words to express what I feel Anger? Confusion? Everyday something new pops into my head Constantly searching and waiting, but am I the one to blame? I assumed you would always stay but I guess you got tired of me pushing you away I wonder how it would be if I said yes but actually I don't know if you really tried your best I wonder how it would be if you said no but I suppose we will never know The memories are enough to tell our story but maybe that is my own way of trying to ease the pain and please you because I am to blame I hope to see you and tell you all about that, then in return you would embrace me with the most powerful kiss and I now it would be straight bliss Just like the seasons, for that moment you were my only reason So thank you in advance for being the one to take that chance, which left me with the greatest experience.