Mum Guilt
Early mornings the kids awake
But I feel guilt ‘cos I want a break
Just 5 minutes to clear my head
To drink my coffee and sit in bed.
Longing to have children
The heartache and the pain
The damage took its toll
Upon my body and my brain
Here I am now, a mother
Brimming full of pride
But that doesn’t stop the feelings
That reside still deep inside
Guilt when it’s unfounded
Can erode you to your core
I want my coffee peace time
Just 5 minutes and no more
I will be really honest
That sometimes I’m filled with dread
When I hear the constant “mummy”
A cacophony in my head.
Remorse can be as painful
As the deed that made it so
I shout, I snap and then I feel
The lowest of the low
I aim to learn to take a breath
When I feel the ire rising
To have a dash more patience
And to be more compromising.
I want to look back on this day
And see I’ve made some changes
To listen more with patience
In our positive exchanges.
Copyright © Emma Goodridge-Hobson | Year Posted 2023
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