Mother's Day 2018

It's my first Mother's Day without you. I don't know if I can cope. To not cry in front of everyone is my very fervent hope. I knew one day you'd leave me. We're both getting pretty old. But my heart, it wasn't ready yet, it the truth be told. No one to buy flowers for or your favourite chocolate treat. No phone call in the morning to give you a Mother's Day greet. My heart is heavy and the tears just flow. How I'll get through this day I really don't know. Did you know that I loved you? Did you know that I cared? Did you know I remember every good time we shared? This pain is so real it cuts like a knife. I never imagined a Mother's Day without you in my life. You would tell me to stop. You would tell me "don't cry". But Mom I wasn't ready, ready to say goodbye. It's only been a month, a month to grieve. I just wasn't ready Mom for you to leave. for Mom June7/1925 - April 15/2018