Mother

Feeling trapped and smothered in this deep dark cold world Feeling like i have nothing left to live for as the tears drizzle down my soft cheeks as i hear the beast yelling about how ill never be good enough, about how i wont make it anywhere in life Over and over again The same thing always happens The same thing happens over and over again It doesn't even see who i really am All it cares about is making me want to end it all again In such a dark place but really i've always been stuck here Nobody cares but what's the difference Everyone has let me down I cant have any friends I can't go anywhere I'm trapped under a tourturess roof full of chaos and remorse It doesn't even see who i am anymore now All it cares about is feeling this kind of power over me All it wishes is to see me fail in life It doesnt care and it never has, never will Thinks i want to throw away, throw it all away for sex an boys Tells me how much of a failure i am 24/7 I can't do anything right….ever Hates to see me happy Hates to see me being myself Loves to see me lose Loves to keep me locked up Loves making me feel pure and under pain Tortures me non stop with colors all from my past Points out all my flaws, reminds me of all my sins Doesn't care enough to look at any of my work The work i've spent years on perfecting, hates it all Who even cares anymore. If the person who birthed you doesn't even like you then what's the point anymore All hope feels lost. Always finding a way to put a cloud of darkness over my head No matter what i do i can't change her I can try and try but it will never be good enough Ever since he left she hasn't been the same Neither has the family. Who even cares anymore.