More Worse When I Cry

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More Worse When I Cry

Teacher said my decisions needed consequences.
I have to write a million gazillion sorry sentences.
Billy was stupid to tease me, call my family poor.
I had to kick Billy so he wouldn’t say it more.
Just like Dad does, I laughed when he hit the floor.
Dad would say I was strong, teach says I was wrong.

I don’t understand any grown up stuff.
They don’t act the same way enough,
or Dad is right; I’m so stupid, I can’t keep up.
I’m trying so hard to stop my eyes.
Things always get more worse when I cry.
Even when I’m quiet and being haved
my tummy hurts cause it feels afraid.

Everyone’s at recess, but cause I made an upset,
Teach said there’d be no play time for me yet.
I don’t know what she means by classroom policy,
but it seems like a plan you grow up and forget.  
There’s no sorry policy in my family.
Dad never 'pologizes when he kicks me.



... CayCay Jennings (I want so much to hug the lil' one in the contest pic, I long to do so)
November 23, 2017  /  Contest:  Photo Story - Eve Roper / First Place 

Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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Date: 12/14/2017 7:41:00 AM
The raw simplicity and the sadness of this poem moved me.
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Date: 12/5/2017 11:48:00 AM
First congrats on winning the contest, and POTD, I know I'm late but it's sincere. I was going to comment on the bad grammar, but I realized (after reading) that you are speaking the boys thoughts and that is brilliant writing in a childlike way in this case is amazing, no fear, just great Cay Cay, I was called stupid all the time as a child, very hurtful!
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Date: 12/6/2017 9:16:00 PM
I love sincere, it is why I'm here, and probably you, too. I appreciate your honesty about the grammar - I wondered how it would go over, but decided it was the best way to present emotion. My parents never said, 'stupid', but I felt it inferred often enough. Any confidence I have was slow grown and realized. You are talented, capable - so I'm sure you grew yours someway, somehow. Thanks & poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 12/5/2017 8:43:00 AM
Wow, CayCay, you really touched my heart with this one...how sad, but how wonderfully written with so much emotion. Congratulations on your placement in the contest and your POTD honor! Hugs, Sandra
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Date: 12/6/2017 9:08:00 PM
Sandra! Hey, there. It is my joy to touch your heart. I wish there were somewhere, some place that this poem could make an actual difference. All the best ... CayCay
Date: 12/4/2017 12:06:00 PM
CayCay, this is such an emotional poem. I know this sort of thing happens every day but it is just so hard for me to imagine any parent doing this to their child. Congrats on your 1st place and congrats on POTD. John
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Date: 12/6/2017 9:07:00 PM
All abuse makes me cry, none of it is right or less than horrific. Child abuse pangs us all more because children are so innocent, they don't know what love should look like. Thanks for reading and commenting, John. Poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 12/3/2017 4:05:00 PM
I read it!! What you said, Back at ya.
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Date: 12/3/2017 4:05:00 PM
CayCay, returning with congratulations on your top placement in the contest with this powerful and heartbreaking write. Blessings and hugs to you ~Susan
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Date: 12/3/2017 4:05:00 PM
thanks for reading so many of my poems, Caycay. Let me find a few of yours as I wade my way through comments. haha. I hope you have at least a few new ones for me to see!
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Date: 12/3/2017 8:13:00 AM
How happy I am to see you won first placement in this contest. Well done my friend and all must remember you also got a POTD for it. Well done. Blessings.
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Date: 12/3/2017 10:35:00 AM
I just looked at your bird pic and felt bad for a second. Have you ever read my poem called "I Confess, I'm Guilty?" If not, I'll leave you a mystery so you may play sleuth today, if you wish. One condition, you must still be my poem friend AFTER you deduce what that poem has to do with your pic. Always good chatting with you, even when I go off the wall! (that isn't a real bird, is it?) Blessing and poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 12/2/2017 8:22:00 PM
wow, Caycay, this is SO good, my dear. I chose this picture but for a different reason. I just love how you made this so real and all about the way he is feeling. you made such a great story of it, a fave.
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Date: 12/2/2017 8:35:00 PM
Hey, sweetheart - oh, I just remembered you'll probably never read this box and so we have, silence. I'll just send you love, you don't need to read to receive love! Big dose ... CayCay
Date: 12/2/2017 6:21:00 PM
Congratulations, Caycay on your win! Very much deserved. I remember, shortly after I submitted my poem for the contest, I read yours and was blown away and instantly knew yours was a winner. It is creatively written and has a great message. Again, Congratulations and yes, of course, feel free to soup mail me.
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Date: 12/2/2017 4:51:00 PM
Yay! I am so happy for you CayCay! Back to congratulate you on your wonderful First Place win! : )
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Date: 12/2/2017 6:58:00 PM
Hey, you recently cracked me up, how I laughed when I saw you had written, "Wowza" - I love Wowza, can we make that a thing? Is it already someone else's thing? Thank you for you! Love and more ... CayCay
Date: 12/2/2017 3:39:00 PM
1st I want to thank you for entering my contest , CayCay, your imagery and flow of words is wonderful you brought back a few memories . 2. Congratulations on POTD! , and 3rd Congratulations on your win! Hugs Eve ~`*
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Date: 12/2/2017 8:32:00 PM
I thought my Dad thought me stupid which was horrible enough. So sorry, Eve. You and I dwell in a special olympics world many never witness, you and I know there is no stupid. I'm sure both our Dads did their human and loving best, it is just such an impactful position in a child's life, decades cannot erase a Dad mark. I'm feeling you and offering hugs ... CayCay
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Eve Roper
Date: 12/2/2017 7:32:00 PM
Thank you :') My dad use to call me stupid growing up that is a word I dislike anyone calling someone else, no one is stupid.
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 12/2/2017 6:41:00 PM
Honey, I am horrified if this poem brought back memories for you. Please say I didn't understand your meaning! Also, I thought I had to call my brave boy, "PhotoStory 2" per the directions and now I see I mis-read that 'my' precious child could be sitting beneath a fitting title (OZ - "If I only had a brain, I ....") So, talk u to me. Eve, I also grow from your contests', love your criteria's, the challenges, they are light vs. other, but most serious poetry; ergo, you, Eve are a gift to me and Soup. Blessings! CayCay
Date: 12/1/2017 9:04:00 PM
:-( This is a wonderful write, CayCay, and far more common than most people realize, sadly ... the more attention brought to this issue, the better, and I thank you for doing so in such a beautifully creative and hard0hitting way. Blessings, and congrats on number five BNP!! Keep climbing! :-) <3
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Date: 11/30/2017 8:09:00 PM
Wowza! What a great poem CayCay! Breaks my heart to think about such abuse. I am so happy to see it honored with POTD! Big Congratulations my friend! : )
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Date: 11/30/2017 9:09:00 AM
Wow! You captured that photo brilliantly CayCay, congratulations also for POTD honors...
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Date: 11/28/2017 11:10:00 PM
Belatedly I congratulate you too. Your moving poem bring back memories. So well expressed from a childs point of view. Your perceptions are always so good.
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Date: 11/28/2017 7:47:00 PM
Your poem tells a story in a poem. I like that. I enjoyed your poem.Cay Cay have a nice evening my friend.
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Date: 11/27/2017 4:30:00 AM
A well deserved POTD for this powerful narrative with an important message. Excellent write, CayCay. T.J
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Date: 11/26/2017 11:24:00 PM
Hi CayCay, It was hard to read this one. It hit home and I got real emotional reading it. My heart goes to the boy in this story and for others like him. Abuse to a child in any form is never ok. Congratulations on getting the poem of the day. It was well deserved- Alexis
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Date: 11/26/2017 6:21:00 AM
A loving depiction of the child's inner thoughts--well deserved POTD recognition--congrats CayCay!
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Date: 11/26/2017 4:18:00 AM
The bond of friendship you two shared was a gift to both of you. Your heart grieves but beautiful memories will always be with you, T. j.
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Date: 11/26/2017 1:36:00 AM
Brilliant poem! I'm getting a special 'kick', because one of my children once argued, "I'm being having!"
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 12/1/2017 10:12:00 PM
Hannah - I had to laugh, I got the line "I am being haved" from a girlfriend's small child. It was many years ago, but I have never forgotten hearing her say that - had no idea I'd ever incorporate it into a poem. Whatever age this child of yours is now, he or she is very witty! Thank you for reading and commenting. Go in a good way ... CayCay
Date: 11/25/2017 3:00:00 PM
- Congratulations on your p.o.t.d. CayCay - A beautifully described picture :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 11/25/2017 12:26:00 PM
CayCay, returning to offer my congratulations on POTD honors for your powerful, emotional and intimate write highlighting childhood abuse. Spotlight poetry shining at its brightest. Hugs to you..
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CayCay Jennings
Date: 11/25/2017 12:35:00 PM
Thank you, appreciate you and I'll leave you with a hug ... CayCay
Date: 11/25/2017 12:22:00 PM
Awww...CayCay. This poem is so rich in emotion. You accurately used words that a child would use in conversation of thought. Unfortunately, this type of abuse you mention happens too often. This is a great write to evoke awareness and change.
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Date: 11/25/2017 12:46:00 PM
His little face in the picture prompt conveyed sadness and a sense of loss that took my muse in this direction; an emotional direction that I wish we could universally direct towards 'gone.' I appreciate your emotion and thank you for your comments. All the best ... CayCay
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