Mistakes Made

I live with mistakes I made in life everyday. I feel their effects. I feel their results. The pain doesn't heal. At the time the ideas seemed great. Now i know they were bad. I'll never ever be able to justify the reasons why. I'll never know either what might of been. Each minute I wish i'd of done different. Some days I imagine what it'd be like if i could do it over again. I learned my lessons. Even though so many judge that i haven't and don't think so. I learned them the hard way. Every day I get repaid. It makes me a stronger person. A more knowledgeable individual. Still all come down on me for it. If the world only knew my real thoughts and feelings. Then you'd truly see. It's not all it's cracked up to be. The humor route i choose covers up the pain. So until all can see it. I will stand my ground firmly. I live with the mistakes i made. Every single day. And each time i die more deep down inside.