Misery

My daily life is miserable But all the same it’s not I scream and always agonize There’s stillness in my thoughts I scream and shout in delight Or is it fear and pain I sometimes wonder which of us Is truly at the reins Late at night is misery Midday is alright Morning is a numb feeling With speckles of delight When I seek help I am ok When I’m alone I’m not But how can I vocalize This disgusting thought I’m numb with fear I’m fine again My guts are spilling now I’m happy here Im miserable Won’t someone let me out