Military Family

Crying is draining I come from a military family where maybe you get a pat on the back, or a grunt, if you did good my dad would never tell me he was proud. I would hear it through my mom what he thought. You certainly don't cry or show emotion isn't there too much shame around emotion. Are we not humans. Finally a couple years as a peer counselor I started learning if you want something you have to push for it. I started drawing my dad special pictures a model t ford, a bear because I thought of him as papa bear. Eventually I started telling him "I love you. " I don"t think families should go without love after all isn't it "us" against the world. When I joined my church about five or six years ago I began to accept that I was loved and accepted. This is a wonderful church with wonderful people and your my family especially all my sisters. But I love my brothers in Christ there as well though I am quite shy around them still but I trust them. Thank you for showing me to love and hug again. Also for allowing me to be authentic I am fully human and a work in progress.