Mercurial

Increasing my laughter eyes full of tears invisibly Heart shouting help Limiting at my ears Can't be spoken out loud Faded destiny My quest fades in the deep of away Embellishing my pain with smile Held contempt of my anguish Slicing through the bitter fruit of life Once I smile with parts entirely Sing and dance to the rhythm of joy Where jubilant will was my toy Friends never gone And family never told of my imperfections The past held a placard of difference Rendered visibly to dilute glooms into my peaceful substance Accelerating on high engines to overtake my particle Am waving to show I still love Right at the moment it turns the curve flowing onto the streets of long gone Now tough storms marches with father's amour The chains of a ravaging relation Keep my turns at the wrath of a mental Exclusive of my part I whimper with fainted anger Should I send my zest in a mail of scenes Curse I it will be seen Father hearts no more Acquaintance encounter counters me not Home peppers the taste of my appetite Questions of a violation to be born here Mighty has his reasons Am convinced to question not Penurious attributes grabbed me with its claw of misery Detecting not the force pulling me into the nest of impoverishment Losing every essence Now am a feature of patience As each breaks It breaks me more Leaving joy as a challenge And inner peace a struggle Riddled with self destruct and a Bleeding life Amplified by illness and danger A result of something not thought of But felt in the engine of my emotions Dumb and careless Shabby and ugly Naive and shy Foolish and cruel Those are my names now Never attached to my handle Called by those as if the birth with me Never thought life would be stingy with joy Never thought destitution would be employed Never thought levee would hold back my tears Thought never that jinx would steer my mind to care worn Alcoholic magnet now attracts mom's appetite made of metal She bleeds her integrity and spits her self esteem Not the garage of inspiring dignity I use to know Whipped and stung by the tragedies of life She loose grip of her every strike back Tears as a river banks at her lashes Her sight behold blur No strength of heart to hold They flow down the shivering cheeks of hers Life pathetic and cold No shield among my collects My body waved continuously in split seconds Quivering to the sunny snow activated Words only explain a gist of my agony My heart detain my pain not to be shown at face The past better days are greeted by antiquity Can't see them even in dreams Does pain contain lunacy Does this means eternity Case that is a test of strength My blood absorb my veins in decrepitude My strength is getting scarce on the market of life Only patience I sit on to wonder the future Only time cares about me now