Memories In Stars

There is a star for every shattered dream every time a person breaks a star is added to the endless canvas of the sky and as I stand Breathe and stare at those fond memories above me- I collapse with the weight of it all false resolve became my downfall for all of those broken hearts I tried not to see tears that never returned to the earth – to shower knowledge upon the future what I have learned shall never be shared scattered dreams on an infinite sky beckon to me as I gaze at their glory if I leave to join the stars will you look for me? when I, too, join those memories and am scattered across the sky I don’t wish to hurt you in my leaving but staying will only cause more pain here on the ground I can’t fix you but in the sky I can be your guiding light when I join the stars don’t search for what’s left of me on earth look up for the memories I hold the scars that will forever be mine now as I lie in a field of stars I can recall the feeling of joy and once again I am comforted by the warm glow of the dreams around me smile at me, would you? for I am lost among bittersweet memories contradict me when I lie to your face feigning ignorance of myself sitting in the field of memories I claimed as my secret base the haze washes over me as I wait in a cacophonous silence in the glow of the stars I hold tightly to my identity as dreams sweep across my consciousness and I stand and run -towards you, I think- towards nothing, I believe now I run for eternity hiding from the pain of love fearing the sting of loss and I stare at the earth below me to seek you out and I find your heart now patched up, newly healed from the wounds I inflicted and I reach out to you but I am not there the memories are my refuge I have been banished from my earth my scars are forever mine and you can’t quite recall the stupid, reckless youth who ran into the stars -retreated into memories- bearing the mutilations of reality