Memories Distant (The Clock)

Theres a clock thats ticking backwards in the corner of my mind and it replays all the memories of the minutes left behind Now I stare at that same clock and its ever turning track and no matter how hard I try those days never will come back I had loved the cold air and the sparkly white snow I want to hold on forever and never let go And now in the middle Of lovely July I feel colder than ever and just want to cry I would cry for the things that I never did say What I could have had but I let slip away Like all of the times that I could have told you how much that I loved you how I wanted so much to hold you Still I could never tell if you cared for me too I told myself I was crazy and tried to believe it was true But you'd look in my eyes like you could read my mind like you could see to my soul just to see what you'd find No one had ever looked at me like you did before It made me believe that you loved me It made me so sure And in my memories I hear it A haunting cold song that just like your memory Constantly plays on and on Then everything was silent as if all of time had stopped and I watched that clock shatter as these memories all dropped In my memories now scattered all over the floor I had loved you I know it But now I'm not sure And for a moment I saw you in these memories now broken Distantly I heard your voice But could not recall what was spoken When I looked back I wondered were you even real It has been so long now I don't even know how I feel But all of a sudden October is here and though I saw you quite quickly my love became clear I had loved you, I knew it It wasn't a dream All those memories I lost Have now come back to me Now theres a clock thats ticking forward and it says winters almost here and I must wait so patiently to tell you this my dear