Maybe She'Ll Learn

Why oh why do I even still try. When all he does is make me cry. Then really not even care at all. You can tell cause he never calls. To check on me or to even just talk. He ignore me when say I don't wanna walk.. And I ask him to come get me please. If you don't believe me just watch and see. How he acts when he gets around men. Like no one can stop him he will always win. No matter how hard the other person tries No on can ever measure up you know why? Cause he's selfish and never really cared. When I think about it really it's to much to bare. The pain makes your heart feel on fire. You really wanna numb it by getting higher. So you won't feel the hurt quite as much. And maybe you won't crave his touch. You'll maybe start to be okay by yourself. And start to feel like a trophy on a shelve. Like your more important than he can see. Cause he's an idiot and that he'll always be. For letting someone who cares that much go. Maybe it's a blessing so she could put her life in row. Without having the distraction of seeing him. So she wouldn't drown again she learned to swim. Even though she reAlky had a fear of water. And then maybe she would again be a good daughter. That send her mom money just to help out. Maybe then she will find the real best route. That her life is really suppose to be on right now. Him acting that way still really has me like wow I can't believe I ever thought he was my real friend. Or that we would always be around til the very end. He hurt my heart after I really gave him mine. So I'm gonna take that as a really big clue or sign.