Maybe
And the only reason I stick around
Is because there's still a tiny piece of me still holding onto hope
Hope that you'll finally see (youre not blind)
Hope that you'll finally understand
(But youll never find)
Hope that you'll stop treating me the way that you have (just be kind)
But I can see that'll never happen (double lined)
[I got left behind]
Maybe tell me what it is that makes you treat me this way
When I ask, you'll never say
Behind my back you have lots to say
I don't understand how you think that's okay
It seems to me like you think this is fun
I hope you understand that this can't be undone
Please explain it to me, aren't I your son?
I wish youl would finally see
How things that have happened effected me,
and care, actually...
Instead I'm the monster, youre the victim
I'm the one feared... this is a symptom
I was raised in narcissism masked by biblicism
How can I trust your words, they're filled with venom
I am the way I am because of how I've been treated or rather, how I've not
I'm not selfish or greedy cause I watched (all of you)
It was ingrained in me but I fought (all the way through)
I have understanding and empathy even though it wasn't taught (got a different view)
Instead I learned, "must be nice", "that'll never happen", and "that figures"...
It took me some time but I finally remember,
Why I am the way i am,
Why I share when I have very little,
Why I help people even when I barely can,
Why I keep going even when I'm shattered,
And why pretending to be okay, I've mastered...
It's because when i was younger I made a vow
That I'd "never be like them", no matter how
So you can have all the material possessions and money
But none of that is what's important.
Money is a means to live
Not a reason to be loved...
I didnt fall out of line,
I was shoved...
Thanks for helping me with some history
To remind myself why I never fit in with this family
Why I'm the black sheep willingly...
Hopes gone, trully...
Copyright © Onyx Perth | Year Posted 2024
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