Masquerade

No surprise I've been cast the role as the villain, the one they place all the blame I just want to fast forward through this horror, I want out of this sick twisted game God gives the toughest battles to his strongest, at least that's how the saying goes How many blows until they push me to finally jump, until I welcome what waits me below The grief felt before doesn't begin to touch on what consumes me now, no words to describe it's depth Not even the vast oceans compare to the endless hours of tears these eyes have wept I sit back powerless, watching it all unfold, the masks go on the second the curtains are drawn A facade beautifully mesmerizing, at any cost the show must go on A grandeur appearance for all the world to see, the public's approval fuels the fire to continue their front There is no tale spun from their mouths that doesn't end with a round of applause that loudly erupts A pat on the back, a job well done, five star reviews, they are the saviors of the day Only a matter of time until the illusion shatters, unmasking the evil who made the innocent pay More important to prove a point, a statement claiming the villains acts just can't be forgiven False pretenses revealing one lie turned into two, then a whole book about the junkie whose mindset is unsound was written A prologue to follow, chapters written of loss and heartbreak they prayed I wouldn't survive The story of a woman who they tried so hard to break, by taking the only thing that brought meaning to her life Each morning I open my eyes, the memories rushing back I can't seem to breathe Each night I pray myself into exhaustion, ask for guidance and patience until the truth is finally seen Continuing on I wonder through this life so detached, so lost, everything fallen apart at the seams I grasp for any piece of hope that my soul, my heart, the very meaning of my existence will finally find their way home to me