Marriage Dwindled

We have been up, down, sideways and phased
displaced by lonely nights aimed to raise
shunning suns of spun solitary pains.
Numerous strains of darkness dispensed from
fights ceaselessly warn my stuporous heart
that wrongs now death drag the good our love had.

Whenever the quiet is still
and I’m alone with silence,
I ache for an easing of our pain,
seek release of our twin aches
and pray a deep heart speak begins
to end our souls’ toils in foils opaque.

Whenever life is in motion
and time moves thru feels stolen,
I feel like a mockery as your wife,
as an anomaly to your true self
and my spirit sits with matrimony
fears and loneliness rife striped with limits.

I am good enough to live harmoniously as me
but I am an awkward bluff in this union of us.
I wish to no longer cry into tear damp pillows
while gaps clamp me to our shared bed’s edge.
Let our hearts stretch towards our once best middle
to find bye's that spare love further death dwindle.



... CayCay
August 24, 2019
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Wolf Avatar
August 29, 2019 at 11:48 AM
Either 'great minds think alike,' or 'we're two peas in a pod' … I prefer the first!! As for the contest, there were so many WOWs which did not place, this being another of them. :) gw
Dietrich Avatar
August 26, 2019 at 6:13 PM
hmmm, I see neither of us wowed her today. hahaha. Anyway, at least her contest inspired very heartfelt writes from the two of us. This phrase really struck me. I love this phrasing: my spirit sits with matrimony fears, etc. You are so poetic!
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August 26, 2019 at 2:10 PM
It's always sad when love turns to hostility, CayCay. Sometimes people split up when this happens, others try to compromise and work things out. Your poem is very well composed and I wish you success in the contest! Hugs, Carolyn
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August 25, 2019 at 2:48 PM
Great penning CayCay, such good imagery and insightful thought too. A pleasure to read!
Romios Avatar
August 25, 2019 at 4:32 AM
CayCay, what a moving poem and so wonderfully expressed. I love poetry from the heart whether simple or intricate as yours is. More than well done. Panagiota
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