Love Struggles

As I grow closer to the man I love. My past torments me. It comes forward in waves. He is shocked what i have been through family has scapegoated me to the point i truly have backed away. Knowing I am a person of value has helped me escape. My understanding of God convincing me no one deserves this not even from those who use the faulcity of love to hurt you and not value you. No one deserves to be unloved. For every human is created and wonderfully made. No family has a right to have power on over you. No family deserves power if abused over you. As I come to realize I am worthy of true love. Of a man with a gentle spirit who honors me for who I am. Yet in the beginning I tried to push him away to ashamed to unloved. He patiently stayed by me and helped me through my self destructive thoughts and comforts my broken heart in every way.