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Love in the Silence of the Soul

As a young boy
Sitting in a pew
The winter darkness pressing down
Candlelight waves from hidden drafts
Shadows danced on the walls

I heard the words destined to me
“Be still . . . know that I am God”
So I listen  . . . eyes open
“The Passion of Christ”
I was gone . . . 

I saw eyes . . . 
Judas under the olive trees - Gethsemane
His eyes  . . . cold, darting  . . . filled with manic evil
Torchlights hissing  . . . turning eyes yellow
Then a kiss and chaos erupts
I closed my eyes  . . . suddenly afraid

Now I see a set of eyes  . . . filled with burning hate
A High Priest screaming . . .    B-L-A-S-S-P-H-E-M-Y ! ! ! ! !
All around ugly eyes staring with dripping contempt
Old men spitting with bared rotting teeth
Then I noticed . . . and . . . 
And my heart ached . . . 
Jesus . . . standing quietly with closed eyes

Then we were off to Roman authority -- Pontius Pilate
I saw his slanted eyes . . . squinting as if too much sunlight
Loud voices yelling outside . . .  “Crucify him!”
In my heart, I cursed these people – but his eyes
His eyes were dark, soft – forgiving
A hand washing and we are walking . . . 

To a hillside, a place called Golgotha – the skull
Empty eye sockets . . . a place of death
The eyes of soldiers hard, focused  . . . 
Spikes, woods – his sad eyes burning my heart
Closing my eyes, I heard a sharp gasp . . . soldiers yelling

As I opened my eyes – I was looking out with his eyes
We were seeing the same things
Angry faces with eyes of burning ashes
Taunting and jeering – a wave of hysteria hitting us
I heard and felt a deep groan 
Fear gripping me – I knew instantly we needed to go

Men, women, soldiers, slaves, leaders, teachers 
Eyes filled with blood lust
Evil, hatred . . . . I can’t breath
Death coming with the darkness
Jesus!        Can’t you see . . . 
Then I heard him whisper
 “Father, forgive them, they know not what they do.”

My heart sank realizing with horror
Jesus is staying . . . dying
I felt his purposeful breathing
Muscles, bones, joints aching with a searing pain
My eyes filled with tears

I saw another set of bloodshot eyes
A voice next to me yelling
“If you’re the Christ, get down from the cross
And take me too!  Let’s go!”
NO, NO!!!  . . . What is he saying
Those are my words – I am sick
My stomach seizes  . . . guilt fills me
I close my eyes

Another voice – on our right speaks
“Lord, remember me . . . “
Jesus painfully turns, twisting his body . . . looking . . . 
He sees blue eyes – my eyes
I am hanging next to Jesus
“Today you will be with me in Paradise”

We were one – together . . . one body
Now separate crosses . . . I feel crushed by loneliness
But his words . . . “Paradise” . . . “today”
He loves me – I see him looking at me
His eyes illuminating my soul . . . it hurts
I tried crying out – I love you . . . 
But only a sob squeaks out

Gravity pulling down pulling down
Eyes straining against the pain
Joints and ribs stretching . . .  popping
Chest heaving for each breath
Body convulsing against wood
Head back . . . eyes wide open . . . he screams
“My God! My God! Why have you forsaken me?”

No one answers . . . surprised eyes
In my tears I felt the agony of the cross
The bleakness . . .  hell
Dead eyes

Back in the pew
I heard the preacher 
“He died for you”
What . . . why . . . no . . . 
No, I don’t want you dead


Hey, wait for me – slow down
Running hard, breathing deeply
I stuck my head in empty tomb – hum??? . . . . 
I sat quietly next to Mary Magdalene . . . wondering
The gardener spoke – “Mary”
But he was looking at me – bright eyes
He said . . . “David”
“David, I love you”

Yes!!  Woo Hoo . . . 
Look at me . . . I am dancing
With shinning eyes 
“I love you too”
“I love you”
“Lord Jesus”
“I do”

David Meade

Love Generously

Copyright © | Year Posted 2015

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Date: 10/27/2017 5:35:00 PM
This is an excellent poem David..
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Date: 11/1/2015 9:39:00 PM
Wow! I mean wow, wow, wow!!! I love it and not because I love the word of God but because it was so tastefully done...thank you.
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Date: 10/27/2015 10:30:00 PM
Beautiful pen Dave ! Enjoyed it. Nice to see you back in the soup and posting again my friend:) Wishing you a very lovely week!In his light God bless you always! :) D.
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Date: 10/20/2015 12:45:00 PM
Stunning write, thank you for sharing it. God Bless. D.
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Date: 10/27/2015 9:46:00 PM
Hi Dave, Thank-you for reading my poem and commenting. I look forward to reading your works. All the best.
Date: 10/18/2015 10:10:00 AM
A strong connectivity in silence is seen here. Well espressed David!
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Date: 10/27/2015 9:47:00 PM
Thank-you -- I feel the connectivity in your words. my love and grace.
Date: 10/15/2015 8:50:00 PM
Yup, meditated state..sorry for the wrong usage of word.. But i loved this poem so so much
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Date: 10/14/2015 9:20:00 AM
Incredible work. Though you took a nap in the middle of the discourse in the church, happy that HE gave a beautiful insight!!! :) loved the work so so much :) Jesus Bless you. ***7*** thought of rating this 5 in the beginning, but while sliding over each stanza I could help but rate this more than 7 :) -Punnia-
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Date: 10/15/2015 12:25:00 PM
Thank-you for your kind and funny remarks -- they made me laugh. Maybe instead of napping it might call it a mediated state . . . I don't think I was snoring!! All the best and love generously.
Date: 10/14/2015 8:52:00 AM
Truly good !
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Date: 10/14/2015 1:32:00 AM
This was beautiful and amazing. The training, the depth, the connection... Reminds me of when I first encountered the reality of Jesus' death that He died for me... Beautiful.
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David Meade
Date: 10/15/2015 12:26:00 PM
Hi Andrena, Thank-you for your wonderful comments . . . He does make all the difference, each and everyday! May His love fill you always. Thank-you for your visit.
Date: 10/13/2015 9:30:00 PM
Absolutely perfect and powerful. I can sink into yr deep feelings, Simply wonderful. Anisha Dutta
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Date: 10/13/2015 3:03:00 PM
Came across this beautiful testimony by chance today... so powerful... thank you for sharing this life changing narrative ~X~~
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Date: 10/13/2015 9:58:00 PM
Hi Kim, thank-you for your wonderful comments. I look forward to reading your works!! Love Generously!
Date: 7/4/2015 4:55:00 AM
Back to have another taste of your words, David. It got its grip on me the first time. Still does today. Powerful and totally absorbing poem. How are you? Have a great 4th!
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Date: 5/28/2015 10:40:00 AM
Great lines with majestic eloquence.. Your meandering of words still did not prevent your peice from giving out its message. This is an absolute 7!
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Date: 4/15/2015 3:52:00 PM
Very nice pen David! I enjoyed your brilliant piece dear friend.A 7 from me!Thank you for visiting my page.Wishing you a very lovely week! In his light! God bless you!:) D.
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Date: 4/5/2015 8:04:00 AM
Yes!! Woo-Hoo...It is wonderful to feel the present of the Holy Spirit within us. a 7 and a fav. Have a wonderful Happy Easter my friend Eve
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Date: 3/22/2015 3:54:00 PM
Rereading this beauty,and I have goosebumps.You are so talented David.
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Date: 3/22/2015 10:31:00 AM
Majestic comes to mind, one very fine poem here, loved it.
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Date: 3/19/2015 3:32:00 PM
tag.. you're it, david.. this is really great.. got a new one? huggs
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Date: 3/18/2015 10:31:00 PM
A very reverent and heartfelt write David. A real beauty!
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Date: 3/17/2015 8:40:00 AM
I see this amazing poem is getting a lot of great comments. That is its worth!! And such a fine one for Easter coming up.
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Date: 3/16/2015 3:36:00 PM
David, this poem is truly epic, it seems to be getting longer, well done, you sure got loads of comments and thanks so much for your kind words on my poetry . . .
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David Meade
Date: 3/16/2015 3:38:00 PM
You are an amazing poet . . . you explore the deep aspects of our souls, the experiences and relationships that form us. I always look for your poems. Much love and light.
Date: 3/15/2015 2:16:00 AM
Dear David, I was mesmerized by this account of Christ's life on Earth. You gave so many details and, with Easter coming, this is a perfect time to read such a poem. The final two verses were positively stunning. Imagine the feeling of waiting by the tomb to find Christ has risen and is telling you he loves you! God bless you for sharing this. My kind of poetry for sure. A fave and a big 7. Love, Carolyn
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David Meade
Date: 3/16/2015 3:34:00 PM
Thank-you Carolyn, you are most kind. I really appreciate your time visiting and commenting! May his love fill you completely as we celebrate his great victory.
Date: 3/11/2015 6:32:00 PM
This is beautiful. I'm sure I'm not saying anything you haven't heard, but your honesty and emotion definitely a thing of beauty. And all that before I ever comment on the pacing which gripped me and pulled me along from scene to scene...right to the peaceful end. My favorite service at church is the Good Friday tenebrae service. A always close my eyes and soak up the sounds with tears streaming down. God's hand was with yours. Congrats on a Beautiful poem.
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David Meade
Date: 3/12/2015 12:14:00 PM
Hi Janet, thank-you for your kind visit and wonderful comment. I love the Good Friday service -- the closing of the Book! May Christ's Easter victory fill your heart with his incredible love always.
Date: 3/8/2015 3:20:00 PM
outstanding pen touching the deepest chambers pal a belated congratulations david dear friend not been on line as much these days wishing you a blessed sunday
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Date: 3/6/2015 6:36:00 AM
This is a poem that pleases the soul and take the heart back to mend a hole
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