Love Gave Me a Reason Part Ii.

To you I was committed 
            And I admit it
You used to be the keeper 
There's probably no love that's deeper

Tears often kissed my cheek and pain hugged my wounds
I would wake up to scorched suns and sleep under chilled moons

Plagued with such HAPPY SORROW
It seems like I'm living without you today, but I'll be dying without you tomorrow...

LOVE is my stalker:
Creeping through my heart
Sleeping in my DARK
Hiding in the SCARS that leave these marks

Love gave me a reason to
Keep secrets that you would never know
Nights I wept that you can never owe

So...
A slow death was all you seemed to give

And the more you gave the less I lived 

Released from bondage, 
let go of a man that played the role of a kid

At first I didn't want to
But Now I feel blessed that I did

All I needed in a life of sin…
Was me and my boyfriend
            Me and my Toyfriend….

                        Me and my…
Me and MY….

Boy…you're nothing but my DEAD END…

I breathed you like air…

But like hair…
I had to clip you like dead ends
                           
              An empty bank account….
Kept on writing me checks
And when I tried to cash your love it Bounced

So I bounced…

Although I died, I cried not an ounce of tears
But the pain just rips, just drips, and wont stop 
until it tears whatever pieces of my soul you left behind
Because you didn't leave me with a peace of mind

And all I seem to do is keep sad love songs on rewind
Letting it pummel my mind                
STRUGGLING to let out EMOTION
FIGHTING against intoxicating Love Potions
As your venom continues to linger in my veins
And your face continues to lie in the nucleus of my brain

I go emotionally insane

Wanting to hate you
Wanting to escape you…..

But instead I clasp my hands and I pray for you
And instead I ask for God to save you
For God to somehow reshape you…
Remake You…..
Break you…

And

     Still…
       
             After all I been through,


                          It's sad that LOVE 

gave me a reason
 to hate you…

             But God gave me the reason to FORGIVE 
                                                                               you...

Copyright © Queen Mcnair | Year Posted 2007

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