Love Gave Me a Reason Part Ii.

To you I was committed And I admit it You used to be the keeper There's probably no love that's deeper Tears often kissed my cheek and pain hugged my wounds I would wake up to scorched suns and sleep under chilled moons Plagued with such HAPPY SORROW It seems like I'm living without you today, but I'll be dying without you tomorrow... LOVE is my stalker: Creeping through my heart Sleeping in my DARK Hiding in the SCARS that leave these marks Love gave me a reason to Keep secrets that you would never know Nights I wept that you can never owe So... A slow death was all you seemed to give And the more you gave the less I lived Released from bondage, let go of a man that played the role of a kid At first I didn't want to But Now I feel blessed that I did All I needed in a life of sin… Was me and my boyfriend Me and my Toyfriend…. Me and my… Me and MY…. Boy…you're nothing but my DEAD END… I breathed you like air… But like hair… I had to clip you like dead ends An empty bank account…. Kept on writing me checks And when I tried to cash your love it Bounced So I bounced… Although I died, I cried not an ounce of tears But the pain just rips, just drips, and wont stop until it tears whatever pieces of my soul you left behind Because you didn't leave me with a peace of mind And all I seem to do is keep sad love songs on rewind Letting it pummel my mind STRUGGLING to let out EMOTION FIGHTING against intoxicating Love Potions As your venom continues to linger in my veins And your face continues to lie in the nucleus of my brain I go emotionally insane Wanting to hate you Wanting to escape you….. But instead I clasp my hands and I pray for you And instead I ask for God to save you For God to somehow reshape you… Remake You….. Break you… And Still… After all I been through, It's sad that LOVE gave me a reason to hate you… But God gave me the reason to FORGIVE you...