Love and War

I hate how you've made me feel yet I love you still I hate the fact that it's you I need to be able to heal I hate knowing there is always a chance that you can walk away And I hate that no matter what I want you to stay My heart is sad to think that one day you will not be here I sit here stuck, not knowing what to do, it's become a constant fear Awhile ago I felt I had finally let you go My body and mind quit fighting for you, I finally learned to say no But it only takes one word from you to break that front apart What exactly are you trying to do to my fragile heart? I tried to turn away from you so I could live to be okay That didn't do much good, I'm in the same predicament today Once again my heart opens to you because it's you I truly love You were the first to me make me realize what love can be And though you did not tell me but twice, there is a part of you that loves me I'm never sure exactly where we'll end up, or if this is all a dream But I feel butterflies again, and my smile beginning to beam One more time I'll tell you, I hate how you've made me feel The fact remains though, it's you I love....still