Love-Hate Reflections

Its how you have a great impact on me and still don’t realize it, Several nights of tossing and overthinking if the feeling is mutual, I hate that you are mine but l still have to share you, I hate how you quickly became a reason for me to be scared of loosing something in my life, I hate how you get me drying off my hands in a shower just to text you, I hate how you mize my texts and still make me wanna talk to you, I hate how you make me feel drawn to you even if you are minutes away from me, I hate how you stare in my eyes and still stay nothing, I hate how you distract me but still make me want more of that distraction, I hate how you touch me and still make me feel want more of you, I hate how you are so flawed but flawless in my eyes, I hate how you make me jealous but still ask me to be less jealous, I hate that l can’t have you my entire life but still love you unconditionally, I hate how l have no shame to steal glances from you , I hate the fact that you deserve better but l still can’t bear to see you with anyone else, I hate how l can’t seem to close my eyes without picturing your face, your smile, your eyes, I hate how you swiftly made space for yourself in my heart without permission, At the end of the day, you give me peace and l wonder if l should also hate that fact.