Lost and Found

Along time ago i felt lost. My life was like walking into fog. Misfortune. I felt as tho god hated me, to have my childhood taken from me. Like a teen trapped in a nightmare. Those nightmares you never wish on anyone, but yet you felt as tho you had to walk through it alone. Its our secret my sweet little one, tho i knew at that age it was wrong but to hard to speck up. I think thats where i knew god didnt care for me, falling into deep depression as a teen. Is a big warning sign, it was telling people something was very wrong. But i was labled a problem child. Bursts of angry and tears, many temps of suicide. Night terrors creeped into my room at night, Beauitful dreams became dark, with sudden flashes of my teen life. Its been 15 years since that day. I grew stronger more wiser. I now know god loves me, hes giving me the strength to pick myself of the ground. Where i once laid. But the demon still lives deep inside me, its the thing that stops me from happiness. From smiling, it just keeps me crying. But god sent me an angel to help, he smiles and brightens my darkest days. He hugs me and washs away my pain, he laughs and i see myself laughing along with him. He is the sun in my home, the most natural thing that can beat a bad life is a childs love.