Lost

Honey I do love you, but I miss you. I miss who you use to be. I can’t take much more of this, bliss seems so far away but I need it today. We lost ourselves along the way, we lost what we were to each other. I don’t think I stutter, the feeling that you love me or care at all for me is lost and I need that. I have grown and my needs with me. So we need to grow together or we will need to part. I can’t keep starting over with you my feelings become a blur. I don’t want to stir up trouble but I don’t want to go on this way anymore for I will go insane. My brain tells me one thing and my heart another. Oh, brother I don’t know which to listen too. I need your help, work with me a little I don’t ask a lot. Hold my hand when it’s a blue moon. Give me a passionate kiss when the Mets miss the pitch. Cuddle me in your arms every time the stars align. Tell me your mine for always when you have had a glass of wine. Smile at me for no reason at all every time our son catches a ball. Love, like anything else is what you make of it. I have tried to make the best of it but I need you to give me half your best at least. Tame the beast inside and become a little more sublime.