Lost

L onely from the terror your mind created out of desperation
O bsessions of trying to hide too far for us to come and find you
S uicide was the only way you knew how to make a declaration
T ricky little ways of self expression, like your fallen angel tattoo

*No longer in my possession with an uncertainty of when I will retain you*. *No longer can be found where I saw you last.*
Oh baby, you were lost before you were ever found we tried so hard and you were found way too late. We searched for you all over this lonely town you ended up growing wings at the pearly gates.
You starved for an anecdote that would cure your lonely depth of the desire of your desperate hell. Your uncertainty of the way the world looked at you created a wrath of deterioration in your soul. All that beauty inside you... but you could never love yourself. You just couldn't see you... ...the way I saw you.
Not knowing where you were for three months...That was the inferno I held until until March 17, 2011. Your inner destruction and ruining of your interests did not free you, in fact it bound you closer and tighter to the end. Your end.
You see, taking your own life was not selfish. It was not a cry for attention. It was for relief... Looking for a way to feel better. Every human has a different response to intense pain. Did you know over ninety percent of people who take their own life has a mental illness? Therefore.... ....you were not thinking clearly...
Oh baby, you were lost before you were ever found we tried so hard and you were found way too late. We searched for you all over this lonely town you ended up growing wings at the pearly gates.
why did you feel lost we searched everywhere for you rest in peace Karen
~For The Contest, LOST, Sponsor, Broken Wings~ ~Date Written: February 4, 2016~
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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Hlabisa Avatar
February 8, 2016 at 2:22 AM
lovely...congrats
Dutta Avatar
February 7, 2016 at 12:04 PM
The poem touched me so deeply. felt your sorrow n grief. Life is like that. Each human being has to carry some sort of loss n pain all along. Warm Wishes. Anisha d
Scars Avatar
February 7, 2016 at 2:20 PM
Anisha, thank you for your warm wishes, be blessed :)*smiles* -luloo
Turner Avatar
February 7, 2016 at 7:29 AM
Congrats, Laura, on winning . This is a fantastic write.
Scars Avatar
February 7, 2016 at 2:19 PM
Daniel thank you for your kind words..*smiles* -luloo
Lane Avatar
February 6, 2016 at 5:08 PM
Congratulations and a big hug for writing this winner.
Scars Avatar
February 7, 2016 at 10:12 AM
Thank you Lin -:) -luloo
La France Avatar
February 6, 2016 at 4:39 PM
Laura, congratulations on your win in my contest, this was such an emotional write, I got goose bumps reading it, so sad, your grief is in every single word ~~
Scars Avatar
February 6, 2016 at 6:21 PM
Thank you Broken Wings, I am honored to have this placement. It was a very emotional night writing this but it always helps to write what I am feeling, sorrow or laughter..Thank you again -Laura
Allison Avatar
February 6, 2016 at 4:36 PM
Dropping back with my congrats LuLoo:-) hugs Jan xx
Scars Avatar
February 6, 2016 at 6:19 PM
thank you Jan :)*smiles* -luloo
Haight Avatar
February 6, 2016 at 3:56 PM
Dear Laura, such heartfelt sadness so beautifully expressed in your poem. So sorry for this loss in your life, but so pleased to see your fine placement in the contest. 7, Hugs, Sandra
Scars Avatar
February 6, 2016 at 4:09 PM
Thank you very much Sandra :)-luloo
Lane Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 6:55 PM
I know this must have taken a toll on your emotions to write this. Hugs to you, Luloo.
Scars Avatar
February 5, 2016 at 8:04 AM
*hugs* to you also Lin -luloo
Allison Avatar
February 4, 2016 at 6:20 PM
Oh LuLoo I have read poems about your sister and I have a huge lump in my throat reading this - the repeated stanza is so powerful - you were lost before you were ever found - may she rest in peace I know how much you miss her:-( hugs jan xx
Scars Avatar
February 5, 2016 at 8:01 AM
miss her for sure, but it gets easier-thanks Jan -luloo
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