Lost
Happiness is slowly leaving me
taking away the essence of what I used to be
The light that shone from my eyes is nearly gone
The twinkle and sparkle has faded away
making me feel so all alone
Laughter, passion and love of life is slipped away
leaving me more of a hollow shell each day
Waking up to eagerly see the sun rise
has gone away and left my eyes
Eyes that used to look into the night sky
whisper, sigh and be awed by the stars that flew by
Looking others in the eye and smiling
saying hello with my head held high
is gone so far away from me now
that I hang my head and sigh
I'm becoming invisible and changing who I am
hiding deeply within myself so no one will know Pam
A mask I now wear to cover the real me
not wanting people to see
what I used to be
Torment is a life I live now
and I don't know why
Sadness so deep the ocean feels small
For my tears can fill the Heavens
and they cascade like a massive waterfall
I gave love so freely and deeply
that I am bound by my words I said so sweetly
Love was a treasure I drew from my heart
gave it way at the start
For me to take the words "I love you" back
is saying my heart must have been wrong
Tryng to put that piece of my heart back
and not remembering what put it there
makes me tremble with deep despair
Thoughts so precious and dreams
I wanted to come true
has crashed so deeply
and is tearing me in two
How do you stitch a heart
How do you make it whole again
How do you recover from so much pain
I hold my heart in my trembling hand
staring at it and seeing it sift through
my fingers like sand
Hatred of only me is what I see
I'm to blame and I'm filled with shame
Shame to know I was so wrong
to love, laugh, hope, cherish
something I thought was so awesome and strong
Now here I am a weak broken woman
a shadow of what I used to be
strong, loving, caring and most of all what made me me.
Copyright © Pamela Boudreaux | Year Posted 2009
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